Sweet revenge. That’s what I want.
To someone who lied, kicked us in the teeth and doesn’t have the guts to be honest.
To someone who claims to be a Christian and yet appears to let Satan use him to hurt someone I love.
To someone who arrogantly crushed a dream without a second thought.
Forgive, you say, God? Ha. How am I supposed to do that? Whenever I think of these people, my hearts pounds in anger. I contemplate all the things I’d like to say to them.
Don’t you see, you planned evil against me but God used those same plans for my good?* How long before we see that, God? Could you hurry it up just a little? Cuz right now all I see is crushed dreams and bruised hearts. I want to believe that what you say is true, that You will make it all turn out okay, I really do.
How did your Son do it, God? He was hurt, bruised, humiliated, wrongly accused, tortured….and He never once sought revenge in his actions or words.
That kind of forgiveness seems too otherwordly for me. Too unrealistic. Maybe you expect too much of us humans?
Janis, Don’t insist on getting even; that’s not for you to do. “I’ll do the judging,” says God. “I’ll take care of it.“**
Okay, God. I’ll try. That’s all I can say. I’ll try.